This week was kind of a roller coaster. We had to drop an investigator because his girlfriend basically told us to leave and never come back. Also another investigator dropped us, and we have no idea why. Then later our investigators that live with their boyfriends that accepted a baptismal date told us that they weren't legally married, so we had to postpone their baptisms to give them time to get married. I was having a really hard time with it, because I felt like we were finally starting to see some progress, and then something happens to ruin it. I was frustrated because I couldn't think of a reason why we weren't having success. We are obedient; we were fasting and praying and really exercising our faith, but still we were having problems. I know that we have trials to help us learn, but I didn't know what lesson I was taking so long to learn. I kept on thinking it was because I was lacking in something or not doing enough.
Then one of the speakers said that even if we are faithful and obedient, we will still have trials, and sometimes they are for us to show the Lord that we will continue to be faithful and obedient even during the hard times, and that the Lord will give us great blessings if we do this. When he said that I felt like Heavenly Father was talking directly to me. That right now this trial isn't for disobedience or a lack of faith, it's an opportunity for me to show and grow my faith. I might of teared up a bit in the chapel. Then later in the day, we found 3 families to teach that are really prepared to receive the gospel.
This week has really strengthened my testimony that Heavenly Father knows me perfectly. He knows exactly what we need to grow and progress. He knew at the exact moment He needed to answer my endless prayers to know why we were having such a hard time and how we can fix it. I know that He knows and loves each and everyone of His children here. I know He has a plan for them, and my job right now is to rely on Him and show His children the way to live with Him forever with their families. The love of God is real, and it's more powerful than we can imagine. It was because of His love that we are here. It's because of His love that He sent His Son to save us. It's because of His love and the love of His Son that we can live with our families forever in everlasting joy.
I love y'all!